Well hunny, sometimes those things happen and we shouldn't dwell on it.

I hope your really not blaming yourself for what happened, even if it were Karma i doubt you could genuinely wish that on someone. And even if you did, you put too much goon in this world to make that kind of effect.

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Big whale in love, Watch Out!

He shot himself in the head with a shotgun I've come to find out...

I just figured it out today, I think everyone's allowed a little mourning time... not to mention everyone I know almost knew him...

It's really depressing.

And no, I don't blame myself.

Holy shit. It's funny how we think that the jackasses are horrible people, when really I think all they wanted was some attention, even if it was negative. That's how someone becomes a pest, or an emotionally fucked up guy. They're lonely and outcast or something, so they hide their pains by inflicting it on someone else.

I'm glad you're not dwelling into it.

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There is never a time when we our robbed of our choices. Our freedoms to think, express, speak, breathe, live, until our last escaping moment. With the burdens of consequence, the choice leads to new branches of decisions, and there we begin anew.

Please don't talk about him like you knew him.

He was a good kid with many friends. He just had a really bad sense of humor.

Sorry about those assumptions. You're right, I don't know him at all.

I have come across some people that often didn't treat me well. This is just from my personal experiences kind of brought out into the computer screen, with no relation to him at all. Understandable, right?

And also I have just a general idea of what I have when I'm angry or pissed about someone who teases me. Well, okay maybe not about the loneliness and every single thing, but there's usually an internal reason for why they do what they do.

Or I'm probably looking into this way too much.

I still wouldn't wish this on anyone, no matter what they did, or what type of person they were, from your experiences with this guy, or with my own with others.

*hugs* I dunno, I just feel like hugging someone right now. And I also hope that this doesn't happen to me either.

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There is never a time when we our robbed of our choices. Our freedoms to think, express, speak, breathe, live, until our last escaping moment. With the burdens of consequence, the choice leads to new branches of decisions, and there we begin anew.

Being a person who's been in the seat of the assumed, being put in a category and considered 'one of those people' by people who never knew me, I've never judged a fucking soul unless they've proved my assumptions right.

When people say I've cut myself for attention, or cut my hair for attention, or what the fuck ever, I wanted to slap them in the face because they don't know shit...

Assuming that you can classify someone like a psychiatrist is ludicrous. Because you'll never know unless you're in their shoes...

Sorry, massive life long pet peeve.... NEVER judge a book by it's goddamn cover.

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Rant over.

*smiles and hugs warmly* Ok Sweetie, You just try not to let what happened get to you. I know how scary it can be when someone you know, even if it isnt all to well kills themselves. Alot of thoughts and feeling run though you and it can be very stressful.

*takes your hands and squeezes them*

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Big whale in love, Watch Out!